living in the northend ;

have you ever seen that one kid,
who seems to stand out from the rest ?

or the kid from the bad side of town,
who seems to not live a life of crime ?

well im probly one of the many kids who can say they have.
mostly because i am that kid.

sure i've seen alot of bullshit in my life,
the reason being because i'm from the north end.

and sure, bad shit happens everywhere,
but i just so happen to live where most of it goes down.

i've heard about girls getting beat with pipes by grown men.
i've seen a drive by shoot up on a father,
and luckly missed.

my schools sadly stuck in the middle of the north end,
and us north enders unforturnately have to share it with the milladgevill preps.

but its not so bad,
i've lived here all my life.. and haven't been involved in any of it.
i've just sadly had to hear and wittnes most of it.


alot of people lay the stereotypes on us,
and say ALL noth enders live a life of crime.
but i'm living breathing proof that not everyone has to end up fallowing the crowd.


and the fact that people think we're all on walfair ?
well sorry to burst there bubles.. but they've just been officaly bursted,
cause my mother works, and recives a paycheck every second week.
and she not a crack whore, or a drug pusher.
not everyone who lives around me is.

of corse we have them.. there around everywhere; if you look hard enough.


remember, just because someone lives around the bad end of the city..
doesn't mean there in a gang, or carry a knife & gun around;
sell drugs, or live in a cardboard box on the corner.
some of us are smart, and live a life of happyness.
we're not all the same.

HAPPILY EVER AFTER : a post on love, luck & fate.

listen, this is whats up .
i havent posted in like, ages.. and i really dont have a reason. so dont ask me.
i was re-readibg my old posts today, and i noticed alsost all of them are about how i feel about anthony... witch i'm sure all of you dont wanan hear me go on about anymore. so.. i'll cut down on talking about my love life for a bit.

i bet most of you dont like hearing about love.. witch is perfectly fine. but i honestlytheres more to it then that. i think if a person hates hearing about other peoples love, they may just be scared of finding love for them. i'm sure if they found it, they'd be wanting to tel the whole wide world. i mean i know i do. i wish everyone could feel what i feel.

a lot of people think finding love should be easy, but dont you think if it was sapose to be easy.. it would be. cause finding love is FAR from easy. belive me.. i know i may have not bene on this earth for very long, but through the fourteen years that i have been.. i've spent at least three of them wasting my time with bad relationships. i guess i waslucky, some people dont find love untill way later in life. but not me... i simply just got lucky.

i wasnt always lucky though, like i said.. i went through some pretty abd realationships. and i'm sur everyone has. theres the " controling " ones, the " going way to fast " ones, the " constant fighting " ones, and my personal favorite, the " i love you so muhc, and i promise i'll never leave you, but leaves within the next week " ones. but really, all relationships have bumps, doesnt matter how much you fight or dont, or how much you love eachother, your still gonna ahveups and downs. no matter what.

but we all know how the classic love story goes, boy meets girl, boy fallls in love with girl and they live happily ever after. but not every love story falls in to place like that. tuns of people fall inlove in odd ways. look at it this way, me and anthony fell inlove while i was going out with my friend jamie, and plus we started out as close friends. friendship has a tendencey to grown into somthing more, it happens alot actually.

so dont think your never gonan find love, or waste your breath running after it. just sit back and let it happen. it comes in any shape or size, and it can sneak up on you.

just let fate take its corse.