i'll be right beside you.

do you remember ever meeting that one kid when you were younger?
the one who as soon as you started talking you just felt like you've known them your whole life...
well, that exactly what happened to me and him. well sure... of corse we had those little conversations before... but that one science class was just... like i was reunited with a long lost friend. we didnt even talk for that long and we already started to open up to eachother.

i really feel like i can tell him anything. he's "always going to be there"... and i know this is true. i love him... i really do. and i know what your thinking... what? doesnt she go on all the time about anthony. but hes different... hes my best friend.

it's pretty much a proven fact that friendship is the longest lasting type of "love" there is.

i guess thats why i've let down all my walls. because i just have this hope that our relationship will not end. and i dont think it will...

when your future arrives, will you blame your past ?

well... i haven't posted sence july. and its now november...
so basicly i haven't done this in about five months.


things that have happened sence then :
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gotten closer to dylan.
made mine and anthonys relationship better.
turned 15.
started high school.
and finally started talking to my dad again .

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Have you ever wondered how your furture will turn out... and if what your doing right now, is the right thing to do inorder to make it exactly the way you want it to be ?

i have. and honestly... i truly think i'm doing my best. i have everything i could possibly ask for; my friends, anthony and my family.... even including my dad... whos finally decided to become a part of my life. i think it's safe to say that it's a good thing. i finally got to see my brothers Alex and Justin, and my sister Kayla. i'm also letting my stop mom, Chrisy, be a part of my life aswell.

hopfully i live my life right... because what you did in the past.. and what you do in the present... will always reflect on your future.

speaking of the past...
heres a poem i wrote like a year ago.


YOUNG LOVE.
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young love.
the purest kind of all
you meet the one you want...
then soon begin to fall.

you feel so jowfull,

so happy that they're yours.

closing out the rest,

and locking all your doors.

you feel like all is gone,

the moment that they leave.

even if their words are lies,

you'll make yourself belive.

never letting go,

you wish for them to stay.

and all the love thats given,

never fades away.

simply strange,
becca sharkey.