big girls dont cry .

i've failed to post at all lately ,
and i'm quite sorry for that .

so, its the new year.. and some things have changed..

i'm currently on birth control..
because i'm sure no one wnats to be pregnate at the age of fourteen .
and because my mom made me , :)

and the effect of it, is kinda making me insane.
i'm now more emotional then i ever was !
and i hate it, i cry over almost everything now.

over things i wouldnt dream about before .

but for the most part..
things are still the same.

me and anthony are better than ever.
and have spent our first valentines day togeather :)
he gave me beautiful flowers
and a cake..
along with a very cute card.

i got him a teddy bear :)
and some chocolates, from a fancy candy store in the mall .

it'll be a year next month.
witch i'm very happy about ,
i cant belive its only been a year though.

it feels like a life time of being inlove with him .



but enough about whats gonna happen, or what already has.
lets talk about today,

i've came across some lyrics from a song.

" you and i are meant to be, so even if the world falls down today, you've still got me to lift you up. "

i love the sound of that,
just the meaning gives me a feeling.

probly because i would infact still be there for him,
even if this world was to fall to peices.

i'd still do everything in my power to make him happy.
even if i had to be miserable, just to see that smile of his.

but i guess thats what happens when you let yourself fall in too deep.

you become obsessed with their wellbeing,
like they have to have a good day, just so yours isnt terrible.
when their tears fill you with sorrow .
and their pain causes you to ache .

but just as long as hes okay, i know i will be too .





simply strange,
becca sharkey .