breaking down is easy .

i don't lie when i say i'm over you, i haven't for a while .
i see you differently now, almost like nothing happened in the first place.
like everything is just finally okay .

for once in my life i can say i'm glad we went our seprate ways .
you have her, and i have him.

your words use to haunt me
your touch use to break me
the pain use to never end .

untill i woke up and realized.. it wasnt you .
it never was.. and never will be your fault .
its no ones.. just my own .

i'll have to admite, i'm jelous because of her.
not by the fact that i'm no longer yours, but she is.
but by the fact she changed you..
and i tryed so hard to, but never managed .

it doesnt anger me, or make me sad.
just a little jelous.

but i undersand why ..

in some ways i can say you woke up too .


i remember when we just sat there.. and cryed.
i cryed so hard i began to forget why i was in the first place .
even though you were breathless and sobbing.. you still managed to comfort me.

that was the first time a boy held me, and said " shhhhh " while rubbing my back .

i remember alot of things, good and bad .
and honestly, i hope you never forget, cause i wont .

i do love him, and i'm sure you love her .

but i'll always remember.

even though it hurt, i think you helped me in more ways then you can emagine .


as much as i hated you,
as much as i wished you could feel my pain
and as much as i swore i never loved you
i think i just wanted that closure more then anything.

and i got it,

even though i have closure.. i still wish it could of been me who changed you .


but none of that matters.

i accept you now, and i'm letting you back in my life .

i see how you've changed, and i hope the new you stays for a while .